- Work on video game
- Learn Unity better
- Learn Blender
- Eat better, figure out what I should be eating for breakfast/lunch/dinner when I am home rather than ordering crap for delivery
- Exercise
- Write
- Enjoy life
- Just do it!
So if you haven’t figure out from above list I have been lazy again. I suppose I have a right to be but in the end I need to stop it.
My roommate asked if I was depressed and I said “I don’t think so”. I mean really I’m not sure. I’m not overly happy but I don’t think I am depressed, I’m just trying to get to the next phase in my life, have been trying to get there for a very long time. I keep running my gears but nothing is grabbing to spokes. I really didn’t want this to be a whiney journal entry but it seems like that’s all I can write so might as well get it out. Work is trying, as always. It’s retail work and I don’t expect miracles or anything but do expect at least that they would appreciate their employees and not treat them like disposable assets. I mean you can just tell that they are cutting hours so they don’t have to pay insurance fees, which personally their insurance offerings sucked anyway so I like “Obamacare” better. My tooth has been giving me issues (falling out, getting fixed, insurance not covering it so paying out of pocket, not being able to find the last bit of money to get it finished) so have been worrying about that. You know it’s stuff like this that makes me not want to go to the doctor/dentist in the first place. We have insurance for a reason and then they don’t pay for anything it’s like a slap in the face. Why bother paying them anything then if they won’t cover anything?
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Not what I wanted to do, so anyway…
I’m doing okay I think I just need to work harder. I think going back to school has been the best thing in the world for me. It has showed me that I need to work in order to improve and need to get back into life instead of sitting in the sidelines. I just need to realize while the sidelines and nice and comfy and life is hard it’s better to live life that watch it coast by me. Slow and steady wins the race but not trying and you automatically lose.