I am so frustrated with myself right now. One of my teachers,  who is helping me a lot to basically assert myself, asked if realizing that my fears were keeping me down helped me to start writing and other things again and I just gave him a lame excuse… I am totally beating myself up about it. I shouldn’t let my fears rule my life. Also I should have stayed today after class with the indie group and helped out instead of running off to get a haircut.

Other things… my dreams have been very active and weird lately. The other night I had a dream that basically was me considering suicide… WTF brain. Also why do all my dreams tend to be in places in my past. This one was in my old home in Cincinnati. Then another one that same day was with my dad…

I think my anxiety is getting to me and I know what I did today has really hit the anxiety button for me.